and now for something completely different...

things are unfolding professionally. and i've got to put some extra time in where it's called for, and practice some serious patience and reserve at other times. what i thought had been tossed aside turned out to be continually brewing over the past month. maybe einstein should just relax. and i didn't even realize that anyone but me had been thinking about it... i even forgot a bit about it. probably because i have been consumed with getting my personal life in order after the tumultuous end of 2011. so, here's to keeping calm [in the work place] and carrying on.

oh, i jumped on the keep calm and carry on bandwagon pretty late. i don't think i heard the phrase/saw the image until late last year... whoops. but, there's some serious merit there. and especially right now, i think the idea of the phrase is holding very resonant for me. unobtrusive tones help to notice nothing but the zone.


i tend to be an all or nothing kind of gal. jump in feet first. i want what i want when i say that i want it. oy. time to take some deep breaths and re-align my spine, you know?

i had a brief conversation with jt and his roommate, who has become a dear pal... he (roommate) has got professional stuff brewing too. we are so similar in some regards. anxious to have good things in our lives. and how else would we get these good things if we didn't actively go out and seek them? follow up. stay connected. eyes on the prize. oh, but that gets so exhausting (and sometimes self-destructive... i don't think my best thoughts when i'm rushing or highly emotionally charged. what? bummer)!

there is some merit in letting things unfold naturally. this is not to say that i am sitting idly by while the world swooshes around me. but, i'm practicing patience. respecting that not everyone's brain moves at the same pace as mine. and some people even have... boundaries. what. does. that. even. mean?! well dust off your thinking caps.

it means i am moving with care and calculated steps. i am staying true to my course while allowing others to stay true to theirs, with an honesty that requires me to look a bit more at my actions. and not react so quickly. shit. it's hard. in work and in love...

slow down everyone

your moving too fast.

because personal shit is another matter entirely. you may remember that i have been dating lately. at times, much to my chagrin. but, it's happening. and in one instance we both jumped in pretty quickly. too quickly. and when it came time to slow down, neither of us knew how to do it. so, now we're navigating what it means... i wish they could believe, in all the things that never made the screen. figuring out if we are interested in salvaging the possibility of a friendship/relationship.

so, i went on a date this week (eeeeek, i know!) and it went really well (in my opinion). but, i'm going to do my best to stay level headed about it. even though viscerally, i'm spinning. i mean it. i had such a great time. in the long run we have found, silent films are full of sound. but it was one, first impression date. i'll keep you posted though.

until then...

shit, i mean...

frames can't catch you

when you're moving like that.

although... you know big red will be all up in this shit. love you. piccys from ffffound.com, again. lyrics are jack johnson. inaudible melodies from brushfire fairytales. big red, myself and 25 of her teenaged students are going to hawaii next week.... i'm getting in the mood. trust.